Doing It Korean Style

Okay, so my last post was a bit of a lie.  I am completely head over heels someone I just met (sorry, Butterflies;;).

So anyway, there is this guy who I met through a friend.  He is from California (new nickname) but visiting our friend, 27 years old, an engineer, Chinese/Tawainese-American, and incredibly awesome.

So we met, and hung out just a tiny bit the first time.  I really didn’t think I would see him again since he was leaving soon, so I didn’t put much effort into getting to know him.  He was super hot, though, like “Holy shit, you could be in a drama” hot, so I let my mind wander to dirty places.

When we separated that day, we didn’t exchange facebook info or anything because it was a pretty brief encounter and, well, whatever.  Then the next day, I run into him on his own.  Since we both had nothing to do, we ended up wandering around and having dinner and stuff.  I had so much fun with him and it kind of felt like we were both into each other but I wasn’t too sure.  We made plans to meet the next night (his last day), so I was pretty excited.

The next day, he facebooks me saying that he was meeting our mutual friend earlier, and I should come.  The three of us met for early dinner and then went to a bar and drank a bit and stuff.  Our friend was tired and feeling lame, so she went home, leaving the two of us… alone!  Haha.  We ended up drinking a lot and talking a lot about everything ha, and god, I wanted something to happen so badly, but also since I actually liked him, I didn’t want to fuck it all up.  Even though I may never see him again, ugh.

But I do know that he definitely was attracted to me.  At one point, he asked if there were booking clubs in Korea because they are in LA and he has a lot of Korean friends, and I talked about how I want to go to one but am worried I would get turned down or something.  He said, “What, you?!  You’re really cute!”  I also have a camera that was basically made for people too lazy to learn how to use an SLR, and he’s into photography, so he told me when he saw that I had a nice-ish camera “it was a big turn on.”  Ahhhh, I’m blushing just thinking about it, haha.  He also got really excited when my being into Asian guys came up.  It’s funny because I think he is insanely good-looking, but I wonder what the average, not super into Asian guys girl would think.  Hmm.

We did get pretty wasted, and he put his arm around me too… gah.  I really liked him and when I went home last night I was completely heartbroken.

I KNOW that if, say, he were living in Korea too, or I were living in California, it could totally happen and it would be amazing.  But that is not the situation at all, obviously, and it sucks.  I don’t think I’ve ever felt so into someone so quickly, and it’s crazy because it was all pretty coincidental.  Argh.  Gotta convince him to come to Korea… :)

Wow, hello new followers!

Sorry I haven’t been posting much.. being away from Korea has made my love life pretty lame.  Maybe I’ll just start writing some sexy K-Pop fan fiction instead.  Okay?

I wish I had more to post...

Everything has been good with BF. Uneventful, but that is better than bad. He does send me cute, uber-misspelled emails, though. Like this one:

 hey~^^
my sweet!
of cousrse! i never don;t forget about u~
i don;t remove u r moemory in my mind and head~
 
u got fun experince in u r trip?
that good for u^^ have a fun in 1 month.
 
i just had normal day~
but feel loney,
i think already know the reason~^^
right??
 
anyway~
i’ll keep our promise~^^
 
so just tell m e u r news~^^
 

Hehe.

I forgot that there are lots of hot Western guys in this world.

That is all.

Wait, what?

Awhile ago, I posted about a co-worker who I maybe kind of had feelings for and who maybe possibly had feelings for me.  Nothing ever happened, though, and I sort of forgot about ever wanting anything to happen.

Tonight, I went over to his place for beers before I leave Korea.  He is one of my closer friends here, so I wanted spend one of my last nights here with him instead of out with a bunch of randoms.  We just sat and talked for awhile, then out of nowhere, he stood up, grabbed my hands and pulled me off the couch, and tried to make out with me.  I was completely surprised by it, and had no idea what to do.  And I hadn’t thought about him in that way for such a long time, that it was completely bizarre and felt like I was being kissed by my brother.

So I said “no no no no” and started laughing because it was all so awkward.  We sat down again, and I couldn’t stop laughing.  I felt like an idiot because I really was not expecting that at all and had no idea what to say.

It was actually good, I guess, because then we talked about how there had been tension between us this past year, but nothing ever happened.  All the while, both of us had kind of been wondering what the other was thinking, yet neither one of us had acted on any feelings until tonight.  Nothing ended up happening, and I felt really bad because I’m sure he wasn’t expecting to be shot down.  Had it been a couple months earlier, or even a different night under different circumstances, I know I would have wanted it.  I was just not expecting it at all.  I explained this all to him, saying that just because nothing happened tonight, doesn’t mean it won’t later.

Gahh.  I feel semi-guilty writing about this because he is a good friend, but I am still so stunned by what happened.  Wtf, men?

My lovelife will probably be rather non-existant for the next few months.  So, my poor blog is going to suck and turn into rantings about how badly I need to get laid (it’s already been a month, ughhh).  Or maybe I’ll meet some super-hottie in my hometown that has a surprisingly high population of Koreans.

Anyway, hope you all have better luck with the fellas and ladies while I’m away from Korea.

I suck, but...

I am also proud of myself.

Liking Butterflies or something I’ve done this past month or so has finally—FINALLY—gotten me over my ex.  We broke up in a not-so-good way, and this past year has been spent thinking about him in the back of my mind.  The whole time, though, I wished I was thinking about someone else because I knew how dumb it was to dwell on my first love.

Finally now, do I realize how stupid he is.  And his stupid new girlfriend; the both of them working in China, probably being terrible teachers because of their awful social skills.. and I’m so over him.

I guess I’ve been waiting for someone who could actually make me forget about him, and apparently that someone is Butterflies.  I’m swoooooning hardcore, but even if we end up fucking it up by the time I return to Korea, at least he got me to get over that dumb ex of mine.

[I’m done talking about how great he is.  I’m just feeling tipsy and sad to be leaving Korea and this nice man of mine.  OK?  ^_^]

I suck.

I went out tonight with my friend A, where we inevitably ended up meeting her pseudo-bf and his BFF Seth Cohen.  Both of the boys were sober, and both of us were/are super drunk.  Awkward.  I had confessed to A on the way to Hongdae that Seth Cohen and I had made out, and she was semi-surprised.  She didn’t know all the details, but was curious as to why he had been asking about me all week.

So then the four of us all met and Seth Cohen was not falling all over me like he was a week ago (wtf?) and A and her almost-BF were experiencing drama because of normal stupid pre-relationship trust shit.

THEN Butterflies called me during his break at work while I was giving A’s almost-BF a pep-talk about girls and how stupid we are (and what he should do to win A’s trust).  So, I went outside to answer his call and at the sound of his voice I started crying.  Like the stupid drunk white girl I am, I sobbed into my phone in the middle of Hongdae while he begged that I stop crying and I only got sadder, wishing that he were there with me.  God, I am a terrible drunk when I’m in love.

So, I sat outside in the middle of Hongdae, crying, while trying not to, and Butterflies was doing everything he could to get me to stop.  I tried to explain to him how I was being the master match-maker with A and her soon-to-be? BF, and how much I missed him.

UGH.  I honestly don’t even want to type anymore because talking to him made me reconsider my taking a break from Korea, and made me realize how hard it’s going to be to leave.  In the great scheme of things, 2-3 months is nothing, and I know I’m drunkenly overreacting, but I really will miss that stupid boy.

Sigh.